Tui

Tui is a 27-year-old woman who is both Māori and Pakehā. She lives in Auckland and has three children. Tui is a stay-at-home Mum.
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Baseline

I started smoking probably like 10 years ago, when I was 16. It was just a social thing really, at the beginning – out on the field or outside the gates before school.

I used to live with my parents, and they smoked. Now, I rent by myself with just my kids. 

Smoking is not really a social thing anymore. It’s a stress relief. It’s a ‘me time’ – time for me to go outside for 5 minutes, have a coffee, wind down, then go back inside and tend to the kids again. It’s like a break by myself. I get out of the house, go sit outside by myself and just have a breather. Like, during lockdown, I probably smoked more ’cause I had the kids at home.

Quit attempts?

I have quit once during my first pregnancy – I quit cold turkey – but with my two others, I didn’t stop.

I don’t want to give up. I have no interest in giving up. I enjoy it. I feel like it’s my treat.  Like, you know, I buy the kids’ food, clothes, everything, and then the smokes – they’re for me. I think I deserve something for myself and that’s my smokes. 

Tried vaping?

No, I don’t like vaping. I like the taste of cigarettes.

Home grown tobacco

I got given some home-grown, but I was too wary ’cause I didn’t know what was in it or where it came from. It looked very dry. It looked like it would be really hard. 

Taxing tobacco

I smoke less than 20 a day. It depends. I’m on a solo-parent benefit, so yeah, it’s expensive, but I still buy them.

I’m currently seeing a budget adviser. She’s trying to get me to quit. She reckons it’s like if I quit, I’d save that extra each week. But my smoking’s the only thing I get to myself, really. That’s how I feel. Everything else is focused on my kids. I make sure the kids have everything, food and everything, before I get my smokes. It doesn’t really matter. If I were to save the money, it’d just end up going on extra stuff that we don’t really need. If you have more money, you find ways to spend it.

It sort of makes me feel belittled or frowned upon, like she’s saying, “you smoke but if you didn’t you could save that money” sort-of-thing. Like, what I feel she’s saying is, I’m silly, I’m wasting money on cigs. But the smokes are my treat. I need to stand outside for like 5 minutes in peace and have a cigarette.

Being a mum, you know, you dedicate your life to your kids. But there’s some point where $50 a week for yourself for cigarettes is fine, especially when your kids have everything already. Some other mums go out and have pedicures and haircuts, I go outside for a smoke. 

Smokefree 2025

I know they’re trying to make it happen, but I don’t reckon it will. It’s crap really, ’cause they made smoking legal so why are they trying to take it away now? If anything, they should put alcohol prices up. Smoking doesn’t affect anyone besides the person inhaling it or someone sitting around them, you know.  

Bans on where people can smoke…

I always smoke outside, and I don’t smoke in the car. I think that law about banning smoking in cars with children is okay.

Smoking is just really frowned upon now. I remember when I was younger and smoking was all right in restaurants and everything. I remember being little and there was an ashtray on the table while we were at Denny’s. But I understand, though. I wouldn’t like to sit in a restaurant while people are smoking – that’s not nice – and I’m a smoker myself. It’d be very suffocating. 

But, even if you just stand outside and have a smoke, people will look at you like, oh, it’s blowing my way.  I’m like, uh, but I’m outside. Or smoking while pregnant – you get really frowned upon. And because I look young, I got so many looks. It was real bad. But yeah, I’d just stare at them back.

Legalising cannabis

I’m not a cannabis smoker myself but I do know people that smoke and it benefits them. So, I was voting yes for others, not myself.

 

 

2 months later…

I’m still smoking. I probably smoked more over the holidays. I went and stayed with my mum and there was more family around, so it was more social. I’m back to the same level as I was before now. Some days it’s more, some days it’s less. It all depends. 

Quit attempts?

Yeah, no, ha ha. I’m currently with a budget adviser that’s trying to get me to quit ’cos I’m a stay-at-home mum on a solo parent benefit. She reckons if I quit, I’d save that extra each week. But my smoking’s the only thing I get to myself. That’s how I feel. Everything else is focused on my kids. If I were to save that money it’d just end up going on extra stuff that we don’t really need.  If you have more money, you find ways to spend it. I make sure the kids have food and everything before I get my smokes anyway. 

It makes me feel belittled, sort of thing – or frowned upon. I feel like she’s saying, I’m silly – I’m wasting money on cigs. The smokes are my treat. I need to stand outside for 5 minutes in peace and have a cigarette.  Being a mum, you dedicate your life – but $50 a week for yourself, for cigarettes it’s fine, especially when your kids have everything already. Some other mums go out and have pedicures and haircuts, I go outside for a smoke.

Stigma

It’s really frowned upon now. I remember when I was younger, smoking was alright in restaurants and there were ashtrays on the tables. But I understand. I wouldn’t like to sit in a restaurant while people are smoking. That’s not nice. It’d be very suffocating.  But, even if you just stand outside and have a smoke, people will look at you like ew, it’s blowing my way. It’s like oh, I’m outside. Or smoking while pregnant, you get really frowned upon too. And because I look young, I got so many looks. I’d just stare at them back.

 

 

4 months later…

I’m still smoking. Maybe it’s increased. I’ve just had stressful family issues. I buy three 30 grams a week. I don’t think I used to smoke that much before. I have a smoke every hour – so 20 or more.  

Tried vaping?

No. I don’t like vaping.

Affordability

I'm on the solo-parent benefit at home with my children. If it’s wet, I might not go out for a smoke. Then again, I might because everyone’s been locked inside all day.

It is expensive. It is hard to afford, but I make sure I have enough for my smokes. It’s my treat to myself. I don’t think there's anything wrong with it. Of course, I do it, but yeah, I'm – touch wood – healthy and everything.

If I don’t have enough, then I’ll borrow money off my mum. 

Smokefree 2025 - Stopping shops from selling cigarettes

I heard that they're trying to make cigarettes not so accessible and to only be sold in, like, tobacco shops.

I get mine from the local dairies or the gas station, whichever I'm closest to at the time. The supermarket is cheaper by a couple of cents but ’cause I don’t drive I just go to wherever is closest to me.

My mum's a smoker and where she lives there’s only a shop and a gas station. The gas station sells smokes. Sometimes her gas station doesn’t even have her brand ’cause it’s such a little place. If they’re not allowed to sell them at all, she’d have to travel all the way into the city.

What the government’s doing is silly. They should do this with alcohol, not tobacco. It’s stupid ’cause they’ve made this legal. People smoke and now they're trying to take it away from a lot of people that smoke. I don’t think it’ll be a good outcome. People will find it at other places and those ‘other places’ might add other stuff that we don’t know about. Next minute, you’ve got a whole other problem. We don’t know what they're putting in it – they could put anything.  So, it’s safer just to keep it the way it is, really, for everyone.

What if there was only low-nicotine tobacco?

Less nicotine – bleargh. Bad. It’s silly ‘cause we’re old enough to choose our own choices. Putting up the prices every year is already a big enough thing, then they're adding all this on top.

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